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““I’m majoring in biology. I think I want to be a doctor, think I want to be a pediatrician, not sure yet. And I’m just nervous that if biology is not for me, which is okay, what’s the plan B? ‘Cause I don’t have a plan B, you know? And I feel like I’m very indecisive. You could ask me, ‘Oh, what do you want to do tonight?’ and I won’t know. You could ask me, ‘What do you want to eat?’ I don’t know. ‘Who’s your favorite singer?’ I don’t know. I’m very indecisive, and I like everything: criminal law – that seems cool; science – that’s cool; English – that’s cool, but I don’t really know what I have a passion for; I don’t really have a passion for anything right now. Or maybe I do, and I don’t realize it. But yeah, I’m just nervous about what’s going to happen if biology is not the major for me, you know? Like, am I going to be okay? I don’t want to go to a school like this, [which is] so expensive, such a good school, switch my major, like, 15 million times and then I end up in school for six years, you know? Or graduate with a not good degree, you know what I mean? My mom has this friend and she’s cool, but when it comes to college, she’s very stuck-up. Like, ‘Oh I went to this school, and blah blah blah blah blah, and it’s such a good school,’ but, like, she’s broke, and she’s not doing much with her life and she’s giving me this advice. But it’s, like, alright, I appreciate it but I don’t want to be like you, go to a good school, have to pay all this money and student loans but then I’m doing nothing with my life. I want to make my parents proud, I want to make my aunt proud – she went here – and I want to make myself proud, you know? ‘Cause it’s one thing to make everyone else proud, but it’s another thing for you to be like, ‘Yes. This is what I chose, I like this and I’m satisfied.’ That’s what I want. It’s crazy to say but I want to make good money, ‘cause you know we need money for literally everything! I want to make money, I want to have good credit, I want to have a nice house, I want to have a decent car, I want to live in a decent area. I want to be able to pay off my student loans at a good rate, I don’t want to be done when I’m, like, 65, you know what I mean? And I just want to be happy and find something. I know I’m not going to be happy every day ‘cause that’s not realistic. But I want to find something in life, a career, not, like, a job but a career, that I like and I’m passionate about, and I’m not going to regret it in the future, you know?”